It’s a shame Sabrina Claudio is racist…

17 Aug

Not since the ethereal tracks from Sade, Laura Nyro, Esthero, Amel Larriuex, Goapele or SabrinaAaliyah have I heard such a hauntingly beautiful songstress!  Sabrina Claudio, likewise accompanied by the production talents of another amazing backing band (i.e. Sweetback!), has created a ménage à trois of melody, instrumentals, and lyrics that seduce the listener.  Not to detract from her talent by comparing her to the other vocal angels listed, but the feeling of hearing someone capture the essence of what I loved in my throwback music in the present!?  Another thing I’m a nerd for (book covers, newspaper comics, untimely notes that resonate…) I find myself haunted and constantly replaying to permeate the white noise!  I get chills each time I listen, transported back to my childhood.  In the S.I.U.Edwardsville family dorm apartments we stayed in, my friends’ dad played and practiced his saxophone in the room above mine at night.  From then on I associated smooth jazz and the ethereal music that flows into the atmosphere with late nights, starry skies, and the city drives back home after hanging out with the fam in East Saint Louis.


Sabrina gives subtle blues skatting, rapid slam poetry delivery, and paced sensual vocals the business as she and her band play a well timed tennis match of allowing Sabrinas’ voice to resonate and knowing when to accentuate her vocal matrix.  I am not just listening to nice music, I am affected to my nerves and get chills (often tears) at the sensation brought on by these musical pieces.  If you believe in witchcraft, as I do, you will fear at first you are being hypnotized by a beautiful enchantress, and you are.  If it is intentional magic I can’t say for certain.  With the different cover and mash-up videos on You Tube and songs on her Soundcloud account her styling is genuinely unaffected, as if she’s speaking her incantation directly to you set to music.  On “I Belong To You” the tone of vocals matching the whispers of maraca shaking like a snake enticing Eve.  She flirts with herself to the throbbing nineties vibe beat with moans of ‘you’ reverberating, glazing the song with a little Madonna “Survival” (Bedtimes Stories 1994) which I used to bump in my magenta Neon!


“Confidently Lost”, the title of the album and track, is a jazzy day with a self-assured crooner, not alone or confused whether things are in place or falling apart.  The sickening drop beat of “Unravel Me” which is the opposite of what is commanded by the track name.  You won’t be the cause of Sabrina’s’ guard dropping or understand when it has!  The vocals build and pull the listener towards the heart of a vixen warning you to keep your distance.  The syncopated drawl of “Tell Me” and the moans it elicits from the vocalist, beckon the body to grind, like internally willing your crush to make that move and pull you to the dance floor or bed!  The group provides a tic-toc beat and electrifying echo on “Orion’s Belt” about the meeting of freckles and lovers lips channeling Nadia Ali and her many club ready anthems.
The visuals slay too, simple and completing the hypnosis: mirrored rooms and a classic silver shimmer jumper and mirrored platforms, a simple white mans shirt like Sade in “Never As Good As the First Time”.  Sabrina transitions between flowing slip dresses and gypsy chic rooms with gauzy bed linens with exposed wood and lots of nature and plants to…claw foot tubs wearing nothing but sand, flower buds, leaves, and butterflies!  The best part, Sabrina’s eyes as they stare you down through the camera, giving you a heart-gasm!  If there are any complaints it’s that each song is too short, not by technical production standards but personal needs, leaving me wanting of at least one more verse and hook before the song disappears from my ears.  Akin to SZA and her earthy rasp, often island lilt delivery of verse like on “Too Much Too Late”, the ears are left void as the last notes of songs played dissipate into the ether.  The silence is strange and loud after one of their songs is finished, so hit replay.  I let myself fall under the spell.  Then shit hit the fan-ugh!!!


After all is said and done and talent set aside, as a black woman, I cannot allow myself to support someone who doesn’t value me or those like me or any woman that isn’t fair skinned with flowy hair.  I don’t forgive anyone, in the generation during or after the one I grew up in, to claim “being young” as a rationale for their bigotry.  True, I grew up in Texas which has its own prejudice issues, but for the most part my school experience there from elementary to college, was filled with friendships and friend groups comprised of many different races without the fog of bias.  Even when I went away to college in Illinois at a predominantly but not completely black college then came back to Texas and joined a multicultural sorority (shout out my sistahs of Theta Chi Omega), a sense of community and unity was felt without focus on race or culture except to celebrate!


I also notice that even after she stopped using the racist account, she never collaborated with black females, only assimilated the tone of black female R&B singers and only collaborating with black males which means nothing.  We have seen time again throughout the changing tides of history from white women (now including other races who have a segmented racist view of blacks while they are also considered minorities by the oppressors) accusing black men of crimes to have them punished, often lethally, to black men now celebrating women other than black as a symbol of success as Nick Cannon recently stated mainly because they can.  However many other races, even those who are also disrespected by white racists, still don’t accept  blacks dating outside their race and some have still faced bigotry from those same women in conflict or their family or strangers.  I do not reject interracial love, my only complaint is if your love is a matter of fetish preference or full of dissing or rejecting one or the others culture as a bad thing, it’s not love it’s an agenda at that point.  I feel the purpose and beauty of any love union is to grow the human race forward, and progress into a greater community for humanity. connectedness, not to stagnate and promote more hate of self or others.

P.S.  No Name will be hitting St. Louis in September at Loufest and SZA will follow her up in St. Louis performing at the Ready Room in December!

Happy listening<3


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Todays Cravings

11 Jul





Dedicated to Garfield the cat!

With other herbs, mixed half cup of chopped olives and crumbled frozen fresh spinach to the half sausage meat sauce, no other salt added.  Garlic bread to the side and top that chewy pecan walnut brownie with some double dutch post ice cream from last week👅😍 Welcome home lover…P.s. baby added brown sugar butter zucchini👏.  At some point check out the comic again ( @Garfield on IG.  The site has apps, games, and more where they treat you with a customized site experience based on your birthdate!  Ahh nostalgia💭IMG_20170711_202557

Double Dutch

6 Jul



When the heavy cream needs using and limited ingredients is an obstacle, try the simplest no churn ice cream ever!!!   This began as a frozen cookie desert and ended with leftover ice cream.  Of course I found the cookie dessert in Lee Bailey’s Country Desserts cookbook, as I have ma’s collection now.  Of course I would refer to it first in a dessert emergency!  She has tons but in terms of pictures and recipes for EVERY treat in the book that puts this book at the top! Why would you even include a recipe without a pic?!

Start by taking a hand mixer to 2 cups heavy cream over 3 full tbsps of cocoa powder and 2 tsps of vanilla and super fine sugar till its cafe au lait colored, puffed and stiff.  The chocolate powder mixes better and the taste is amplified when you blend the powder with the extract and sugar first.  This dessert is finished as you layer and stack cookies (on top of +-crossed plastic wrap)in a loaf cake form.  14993676822341019654869

I used Walker shortbreads cos that’s the cookie the house had on hand, but wafer cookies are best and your favorite biscuit is even better!  My alteration was I used that chocolate whip only for the inner layer and, to the left over cream in bowl, *folded in a small can ~ 14 oz.~ of condensed milk. Frost the outside of the stacked cookie mousse loaf and wrap to hold shape while it freezes.  The rest pour in a sealable bowl and freeze for delicious quick homemade icecream!💞🍧🍦





Seek and Find:excerpt

27 Feb

Young Adult Fiction

By Emalie Walker


She daydreamed looking out the window at his store, wondering about her future and what she would actually do to make money.  The last time she went to the mall low on cash, she ran into a few girls that had graduated out of her middle school the year before in ’94.  They always seemed to have the new something: Dooney and Burke purses, Eastland shoes, Polo shirts.  The brands were their symbol.  Labels were their clique.

“Hey Harmonie!  We know you ain’t buying nothing up in this mall!  Why don’t you hang with us, we’ll hook you up?”

Harmonie didn’t really want anything, or the company, though didn’t spend too much time arguing specifics.   The less she resisted the less there was to share.  They walked into OMG, a store to get club clothes and tight denim, not that she would be able to wear either until the age of thirty or marriage according to her dad!  She followed them to the table with tube tops.  Her mistake-they were tube skirts.

Then she saw how they got the labels they flaunted.  Sure they had more pocket-money, but for this excursion they decided to slip some over-priced camisoles and mini-skirts into their waistbands.

Harmonie didn’t participate and didn’t say anything until they were back walking toward the music store.  “You didn’t get anything Harmonie?”

“No, it’s not right to steal.  Plus I work in a store smaller than that one, we couldn’t afford to stay open if folks did that to us and I know I would never get paid.”

Their assumed leader Byanca Persil spoke up.  “It’s the 20th Century-forget about them!  Besides, stores can afford it-how do you think all those conglomerate CEO’s accumulate all those yachts and island trips?  Their luxuries are bought with the theft insurance.”

Carine added, “Yeah, Harm it’s all good!  We aren’t going to let them get away with taking our hard-earned cash to pay for their hunting trips-“

“-where they kill endangered animals or humans!”  As vain as Vonette was she was equally as obsessed with conspiracies.  “So, are you going to accept the challenge of the revolution or not?”

“It might call for action more drastic than this.  Don’t be a chicken.”  Byanca smirked at Harmonie as if daring her to be a ‘fraidy cat’.

However, Harmonie wasn’t chicken or taking any chances with being on the punitive side of the revolution.  She also wondered how these girls were earning that hard-earned cash they claimed to be holding? She left them at the food court, excusing herself for a babysitting job she didn’t have, if only to demonstrate a business mind to her unenlightened peers.  Minus any fear of the unknown at breaking the law, she had first-hand knowledge of life after you cut off certain opportunities.


When I Think About The Cross

26 Nov

When trying not to worry…Favorite tracks: *1 / 3/ 8/ 7 / 11/13 /14.

#3*…A song much needed right now although I wish it didn’t hold relevance again so soon for the same reasons.

RIP Family, Friends, and Prayers for the world+

Thanks Dad

*My SUPER Favorites on repeat ❤

Now available on Amazon Kindle!

22 Oct

Thanks avasterlingauthor !

Author Emalie Walker

Free preview at Amazon Kindle Site

Buy full copy at:

*Giveaway coming soon…

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Products A Go-Go!

7 Oct

soap and gloryWell I decided a splurge was in order for all my dry spots as the chill hits and misses.  I’ma be ready for the winter ash so I hit the Ulta for expensive product restock. Unintentionally expensively chosen on my part. Two of my fave products I caught at super cheap prices when they were on the POS rack and at Target.  After they hooked us in the low end they switched to the high end.

I needed lotion and had to return to my Soap and Glory butters! Originally under $10 now $15 for the smaller jar; I got the lotion for five less same effect.  If you want to smell like a nutty, brown sugar grapefruit, this is the joint. Smells delish and probably a good meat glaze to, therefore a good body glaze.  You will have fans trust.   I wanted the shower scrub but I have to save money to go out of town this weekend. burts bees

As a person allergic to most everything I don’t stray far from Vaseline for my lips, but I read labels as one will usually spot me hunched in an aisle doing, and took a chance on Burt’s Bees  Red Dahlia Tinted Lip Balm.  Unbelievable with all the oils and extracts listed there’s not a one I’m allergic to.  The first one I picked up did though, lol!  Thank you for the option and the color<3

For our nightly foot rubs I went to look for Baume Du Randonneur Hiker’s Foot Healer.  Originally one cent, and long lasting for the .7oz or so.  Now  $19 for 26 oz., but expect it to last.  You only use less than a dime size squeeze and the cream spreads and absorbs.  We had been using an spearmint and jojoba oil mix, added to hemp lotion. This is easier and less messy:)  I don’t know how bad hikers feet are but this stuff is an instant healer!  9 Plants to Nourish Soften & smooth is the tag line and it delivers and the lemon mint aroma smells amazing! hikers heel

So those are my fall splurges so far and all of them are supposedly good for the earth, people, animals, and the soul!  At least the packaging says so 😉

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Taking My Taste Buds Back!

25 Sep

chipsSo volunteer G’ma Simmons gave some of us pocket change so I went on our drink run.  And if you a give a mouse a drink, of course they’ll want chips to go with it.  I wanted chips.  I really wanted old school wavy sour cream and onion Lays. I saw these instead and was a bit skeptical at first, I don’t eat truffles, proper. (I bought a backup Doritos) However…they were Awesome!  The New flavor vote Truffle Fries was just the substitute!  Not only are they the delicious sub, they remind me of Macedonia Baptist Church Vacation Bible School snack (Nikki do you remember!?!)-Wavy Sour Cream and Onion chips with red Kool-Aid of course!!! I don’t know why those seemed like the best chips in the world at the time: crunchy, perfect amount of creamy tangy dustiness…Nommyum

I will be voting.  For the idea submission, thank you Angie Fu, wherever you are.  For the fruition, thank you Lays<3

Vacation Dreamin

21 Sep

booksWell the official un-plug is over but off-clock still busy on the “hut” for sales aaaand due to being caught up with work, I still get to enjoy some books and some old shows like…

Are You Being Served?.  Miss my Brit-Com weekends in Texas~

Malcom X: A Graphic Biography By Andrew Helfer

Saints (from Boxers & Saints) By Gene Yuen Yang

same difference and other stories by derek kirk kim

Oh yeah, and the Farmers Almanac 2016! All in all some good theories and useful information 😀  Okay, back to it.

“Symphony No. 5 in E Minor, Opus 64”

18 Sep

When people say “where have you BEEN?” things like this (and more unsaid) get in the way; there should be no hard feelings when reuniting…#letpettydie Good thoughts sis ESPECIALLY getting alone with waiting books<3

Life's Important Question: F.O.B.

I can’t believe that is has basically been half a year since I posted anything. Since then I’ve survived my first administration of TAKS as a teacher, taken and passed the dreaded PPR, completed my internship ( now I have to pay my fee for my certification and wait on my piece of paper to arrive stating that ‘I r a tichur,’ finished buying furniture for my apartment and signed a contract for next year.

Life has been a blur but I can’t say anything other than I’ve been vey blessed even when things weren’t the greatest. Like the 5 year turnover of friends, cultural frustrations, learning ugly truths about myself, have the delight of starting over yet again, being reminded o my failings, etc. But yes the clichéd terms, I’m better for it.

I’ve been productive enough to have completed most of my summer to-do list which means I…

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